I’ve been writing for a little over a year. Pride bubbled in me when I finished my first manuscript. I honestly thought I was ready to be published after the first draft. Okay, maybe after passing through it with one quick edit. Yeah, I know you’re laughing. I just figured my job was to write the story, while the editor’s job was to edit the draft. Boy was I wrong.
My first clue was after submitting my work to a critique group. I tell you, they ripped into my manuscript like they were shredding sensitive documents. It didn’t discourage me though. I only became more determined to get it right. Cause I absolutely knew I had a novel worth publishing.
That’s not to say I didn’t have some tough times. A few times I cried over some of the things the meanies said about my work. But once the tears dried, I went right back to the drawing board, ready to prove them wrong.
So if I’m so determined, what’s with the insecure writer crap? The second guessing! Oh My Word! Sifting through the critiques drive me insane. Everyone has their little pet peeve. There are a hundred billion gazillion guidelines folks think are “rules.” And I’m constantly asking myself, “should I follow their advice?” “If I do, will I improve my work or make it drab?”
Then there’s the whole, “I’m not so fond of this piece of advice; I’m not going to use it.” Will the critter be offended when he/she sees the non-changes?
GAH! the stress of it all!!! And it all leads to, will readers love or hate my story?
So what do I do? Push on and hope for the best. It may not be the most effective method, but it’s what I have for now.
How do you deal with writer insecurity?